opportunity is knocking I just dont have enough hands to open all the doors

7am Im not working today, so you ask why am I awake? good question indeed.. I cant sleep my stomach is in knots and I am feeling stressed. It would seem that life has handed me yet another werid opoortunity. I applied ages ago like Aug to Trent University for a job, I never heard anything from them then they call me yesterday wanting to interview me for a full time postion! I was like what the heck is going on here?? Why is life doing this now when my mind is made up- or thought it was and Im just about to start a new job.

So I thought about it and decided that I would at least go see what this was all about. I mean it would be foolish to not go and see what the job involves. I guess its true what they say when it rains it pours all the opportunites that you look for and never find all of a sudden come in one big clump. I dont understand why the universe does this, I mean if would be much nicer of life to say ok look here are your options here are the pros and cons and you can have a month to sit on a tropical island sip some drinks and think about what you want to do. Wouldnt that be nice? I think it would be lovely!

Stress is taking its toll lately, they say that moving, getting married, changing jobs and experiencing a death are the most stressful things that you can go through. Well in the last year I have had 3 of those 4 scenarios happen to me. I just want to sleep again I want to sleep the sleep of a person who has no cares and is at peace. Will that day ever come? The thing thats hardest about giving my notice at work is now its 2 weeks of constant goodbyes and lottering around waiting to leave and feeling scared and trying really hard not to look back and ask my self if this was a mistake or not. I am much more the person in favour of rip the bandaid off quick and get the pain over with vs the slow agonizing removal. Im excited about the new opportunities ahead I think I just need to get myself into the job and start.

Well as the nausea swirls arouund in me I will continue on hoping that things will get easier. They can only get better from here on in.