Why I dont hate Marcia Cross and other Super Market Revelations...

Its amazing the things that can come to you when your standing in the check out isle at the grocery store... or its amazing how you can see yourself changing. I'm standing in the line as I always do looking at all the star mags and amusing myself while I wait.

Then there it is the magazine I have avoided for a month.. the Good House Keeping with Marcia Cross on the cover. See I have been hating her for a while now.. when I found out I was pregnant I was delighted to think that my favorite desperate house wife and I would have kids that share the same birth month. Then everything went sour and I started resenting her ( i know you would think shes a personal friend or something) Maybe not resenting her but resenting what she still had and I did not. So I would avoid the magazines that showed her glowing and stroking her ever growing belly, a painful reminder for me.

For some reason today I did something that I had not done, instead of looking at the cover and feeling upset I picked it up and turned to the page about her story. As I started to read her story I realized how much I did not know.. Marcia Cross had come to a point in her life where she was alone 40 and no good men in her life. She was about to consider adopting a child as she had felt her opportunity had passed her by. Then she met her husband and like a fairy tale it all came together and shes having her wonderful twins. In that line up I realized something, she had her own painful journey, I'm sure that there were days that she felt despair and sadness over being alone and childless at 40. So instead of resenting her I decided to celebrate for her, cause she on the home stretch and her story can give me hope that I too will have the fairy tale ending. Its more then hoping it will happen, its believing that God has a good and perfect plan for Barry and I.

So Marcia, even though our kids wont share a birthday, I know that your story is hope for me and its good that we can live in a world where the good things still happen in amidst the bad. Next time I see you smiling at me from the over of a magazine I will smile back because I know that Faith, hope and love are alive and well in this world, and as I'm finding they are coming to life again in me.