15 vials closer to answers...

I guess you could say that we are 15 vials closer to figuring out the haunting mystery of how we got here. Barry and I went to see my doctor today, and my doctor decided that we would do a miscarriage work up (looking for autoimmune disorders, blood clotting issues, hormone levels, thyroid, you name it they tested for it) for me and test chromosomes on both of us. So after the lab vampires drained me for all I was worth, I felt a small amount of relief that we were one step closer to finding out anything that might help us understand why we lost Abby. There were no real answers today, the autopsy has still not come back, I guess it takes time to analyze everything. I took a mighty huge list to my docs and asked her every question in the book, of course until these labs are back there is not much she can really tell me.

The other piece of the puzzle is we will go to meet with a doctor at the High Risk Pregnancy clinic at Mount Sinai Hospital. There they will probably do more blood work ( I guess special things they don't do at a regular facility) they will take an extensive history, examine all the findings and give us the results and go through how likely this is to happen again and what we need to follow more closely the next time. It makes me tired to just think of all this stuff. The good news is that all this will help to give us some peace of mind as we move forward and continue to plan our family.

I will go back to my doctor the second week of February and get the results of what they took today, and depending on what they say about my hormone levels I may go on some meds to help get my body ovulating again. So from there I'm told that we can hopefully be back on the baby making train by March. I was very frustrated to hear this today, as I was hoping it would be sooner, but my doctor wants my body to have a decent break so that next time things go well. She made a good point, what is 3 months in the grand scheme of things.. it really is not much, I will have to keep reminding myself of that. If there is two things in the world that drive me nuts and I hate its 1) waiting for answers. 2) feeling a lack of control over situations. It would seem I'm at the door of both situations. I guess time will tell, I just hope time goes quickly so that we can get back on the path to our family.