one night down 4 to go...

Well I have done the first of my last five nights at the hospital . I have to say that I still hate nights even though I dont have many left. I felt like pooh this morning I could only sleep till 2:30pm and then i was wide awake.

It was sad for me last night as it was the start of the goodbyes. I had to start to tell people that Im leaving which was hard cause it makes it more real. Then it was hard to say good bye to causal staff that I dont see very often. People have been generally nice and supportive about my decision but still it makes me nervous like am I making a mistake? I mean I cant look back I just have to look forward and relaize that now that Im married this is a good move for myself and Barry. We will have more time together and the same schdule. I just hope that I can actually do the job and that Im not a giant flop at it. Thats the part Im worried about.

Anyway tonight is the second night in a row, then Ive got one more. I hope its not busy tonight.