So the waiting is over. Today I got the news that the job offer I was waitng to hear from is mine. I was in shock as I found out this news at work. Which made it 10 times harder thinking about how much history i have at my hosptial. I have put 4 years into my job I finally feel comfortable and happy in my job and now crazy Cherie is gonna leave!
But its one of those opportunities that does not come along very often so I feel that to turn it down would be a huge injustice to myself. Im scared to death! I told my boss that I thought I would be leaving and would let her know on monday. She was very supportive and understanding. I never thought I would do this Im such a wimp. I hate change and here I am just married and Im settling in after the wedding and Im gonna thrust myself into a huge life change. Its so hard to know whats right, I mean there are so many pros and cons, how do you ever know if your making the right choices? I guess you can never be sure. All I can go on is that this opportunity was given to me and it seems logical to follow it. The one good thing is that I will have more time with my husband and we will be on the same schdule.
I keep thinking what if I suck? what if I just dont have a clue hoe to work in an office? Im scared that I will not measure up to my job description. I dont have any idea how to work a fax machine, Im inept with a photcopier, I have basic computer skills. I hope that I know enough to get me through. God this is scarey! Part of me wanted to not get the job so that I could not have to decide, but that would be the cowards way. I know that my friends and Barry will be a big support to me as I try this journey- so I guess its time to take a deep breath and jump in - the waters fine.
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