Bad Day

Without going into details as I think Im starting to learn that while I enjoy blogging and sharing my life with people.. not everyone needs to know the nitty gritty details of my life.

Anyway lets just say its been a bad day. I feel completely awful and unhappy. I am stuck with all these negative feelings that I want to just get rid of but am having trouble finding a way to let go.

The best way to describe how I feel is what I came up with this afternoon. I feel like Im a runner and I have been training for this big race, just as Im getting ready to jump from the starting line I realize I have an awful cramp in my leg... I look at the track before me it seems unpredicatble, with no clear end and I think I dont know how I will finish this run with my cramp. That is how I feel somewhat powerless and at the mercy of things out of my control.

I will admitt that Im a worry wart (that is clear from my past blogs) however I just see this journey stretching out before me and Im having trouble seeing the bright side and Im having trouble with the fact that I cant tie things up in a neat little package and "fix it". Anyway Thats why there have been no new blogs this week just lots going on in my head. I will say this I am lucky to have Barry and my good friends as both are wonderful supports to me. I hope that one day (in the not to distant future) I can look back at this blog and think wow that was no big deal at all. I also hope to be back to my fun writing stuff.... might just take some time. Anyway thats all I got for now.