Day Three, unsure

Well its Day three of my office adventures.. or rather lack of adventures. I know that I cant judge this job yet as its too soon I have to give it more time. But as of right now Im not sure, at this point Im bascially watching other people work and reading alot of policy manuals!!!! Who knew that they could write so many policies? There has to be a policy for everything. I thought about stopping to see if there was a policy about how to pick up the phone or how to use the bathroom, sadly there was not. But perhaps they will have me write one!!

Im making fun of the policies but really the people are quite nice and helpful. I know that the start of any new job is like this you do all the boring stuff first. But as I sat at my desk yesteday I found myself thinking about what might be going on at the hospital, are they doing a stat section? How many people are in labour? Im gonna need time to adjust I also am finding going to work everyday very tiring. Im used to getting it all done in three days of hell just do 12 hours for a few days stright then being off. Now im at the grind everyday. I dont know, I dont want to think those awful words, I dont want to even write them for fear they may be true but I cant help it..... what if I made a mistake? What if Im not this kind of person who can sit in an office 8 hours a day? I dont know. I have been told that it will take 6-12 months to adjust. All I can say to that is its gonna be a long year. Anyway Im not throwing the towel in yet its only been a few days and who knows its gotta get better. I hope!